A-Grade guy from an apple tree.

“Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.”
― William Shakespeare, All's Well That Ends Well

There's this guy, whom I never know, I never want to know, 
I didn't feel attracted to any of his where about, what's more, we were  completely strangers.

Within that time frame, I prayed hard for a perfect guy that will fall off  from a very decent, A-grade  apple tree...until, he started to talk to me.
Well, I'm just a highly guarded soul with less armors. 

So, why not?  Let's start talking.
 Instead of us being indifferent, we're actually more than alike. 
Hard-headed, stubborn and egoistical and we were fool for the same things. Be it a love or a materialistic branded items, we were fool-ers once.

The good thing bout him?
His smiles was charming.

The bad thing bout him?
None of my brain cell  would want to recall it.

So the thing began with the 30 minutes super matching minded and amazement on
 " How could he thinks like me! "
"High five dude! "

Okay, I kept that "high-five-dude"in my mind only, we weren't going that far. Ahahah!!

Obviously, he's someone that I want to share my experience, making him different from the past men , special in his own way, yet his got these attitudes that I cannot tolerate and any women couldn't do too.

What happened was , he's the one i love, but I didn't trust.
I completely shattered by his game and it was me at the cost. The 'bill' I have to pay was too high that it costs me part of my life experiences. 

My fall ,tears, loneliness and regrets are what makes me braver than him.

"Just a friend but more than a friend" yet a very delicate one, complicated but we were one in everything.



You know, there's this saying ;

"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”

            ― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever.

I felt it.

Trust me.

I raised one leg whenever I saw him !

(God knows how it's feel!)

But the thing is, love is not about what you imagine it would be. Love is also a fight where the biggest foe is ourselves. Love is when you're fighting between what your mind wants and what your heart says?

I denied my heart instincts. [I was totally correct at the end]

It's not about the 3rd person. (not in my case)-Thank God.

If you were attached to someone but you feel the sparks again with another person, that is when you need to listen to your heart.
(It will tells you "This isn't right. I've got someone in hand already. Be loyal." ) But, that was not the thing with him.

And if you saw someone being dishonest to you, then still,  listen to your heart..
(You know how things can be very very emotional and you fought for days when its just a misunderstanding?)


Tho its hurt but love is very seducing.

So the pieces you've got take time to heal but the true healer is not to abruptly move on, but it's to accept things happened for reasons.

We must accept that we did mistakes to ourselves and..( If you can't find any to him, may God bless you..)

We must learn to forgive ourselves before him, before merely regretting the past without taking any good sides or memories in the past.

Never hold grudges.

Never intend to 'pay-back'.

Don't stop breathing!
Don't stop living!

Because on the upper side, heavens are judging .
They are counting days for you to walk down the aisle with the perfect man .
Because heaven gives the best for the best.


If there's this one man knocked you down very very hard, and you can go crazy if you hold on, then let it out!
Just  cry , shout and let it out, tell your best friend the same stories over and over again until you, yourselves get bored of it.
Go and roll on bed with messy hair,  cry when you're taking a shower, fake smiles if you can afford one, and sing like no one care, because we are human.


We need a break.

We are very limited.
There's no one like me, and there's no one like you.

We are the one and only on the planet !

We are precious!

Don't waste time crying over the split milk.

Give  yourselves a raise!
Get a stronger you!
Be bold!
Hold your faith!

So what?
If he breaks your heart, you are dying?
Already?
That fast ?

Nope baby.

That was when I believed that love needs a lot and I have to give out,  SINCERELY.

If we are sincere enough, we won't ask for a repay in every single favor we did for him.

So that we know, if he's just a 'drop-by' then he owes us nothing.

NOTHING

(Please take note
that he's not the only apple from the tree ! )

hehe