Different feelings

I've been on hang for awhile these days. I feel different. Whether its signs or just my emotions mix up, I honestly don't know. You know, death is inevitable. Every living will face the death. Its Allah promise. And these days too I have been exposed to too many death reminders like going to grave, a lot of people around the neigbourhood passed away, I received many news on people that kicked the bucket, accidents on the road and others.

Its not a good feeling. It feels different. It doesn't feel good at all. But above all, Allah knows it all.

Everyday, I'm teaching myself to always always always revert back to Allah SWT. I did so many bad things that I honestly feel I'm not forgivalbe at all. But IF that is true it musn't be true at all because Allah SWT IS THE MOST FORGIVING IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE. I am a sinful servant that I even disgust to think of sins I've committed. But I want to be forgiven by Allah. ALLAH IS THE MOST FORGIVING & I believed that ENTIRELY.

May whatever journey I'm in, whatever future may hold, whatever will happen anywhere, I'll always revert back to Allah, to Islam, and realised that we all have only Iman and Islam as sources of living.

                      NOTHING ELSE MATTER.

                             ISLAM ❤ IMAN

Practicality

I know Raya means festiveee seasons for like 2 to 3 months for some people. And their preparation are no joke! Tons of new clothes, baju kurung, kebaya, kurung modern, baju melayu  jubah & kurta you name it!

These days everything has been improvised to carter their needs. Lacey, beads, sulam, sticthes, patches cutting and printed pattern are trending. But nit everyone has the same interest on their baju raya designs right?

As for me, whatever brand it is the most important thing is the PRACTICALITY. nothing else matters. Personally i think that a great baju raya is the one that

1. Syarie' compliance
2. Comfortable
3. Can go straight into washing machine
4. No need inner/double layer

You know your baju raya is the best when you can easily pull up the sleeves to wash the dishes, help with the gravy, curry and lauk or help your aunt to hold the baby for awhile.

And check the weather as well. I'm currently in blazing hot sun of Melacca so no lacey or beadings or brocade / thick material this time. Also, check your upcoming event. Are you going to hotel, high ends places, relative houses, kampung or somewhere that may need little attention on your wardrobe choice.

It matters.

Every individual is different. So we all have different taste on fashion. Some people really takes fashion as life and that is absolutely fine. Some people practice absolute moderation and that is also great lifestyle. Some people are unfortunate and they can't afford nice clothes. So whatever we plan to do/wear, make sure we don't OVERDO it.

Be grateful for what we have because at the same time million others wanting to have what we have.

#happymoderaterayaeveryone :)

Baju Raya

Two days straight at Danau were exhausting to the max ! I hatttteee going there. If you say it was for shopping, how can you shop when you can't even look at the shop at all?? They were crowded and people came like ants all over the world trying to get one sweets! Insane.

And I don't get my baju raya yet because they were pricey tho! With all the cramped place and stuffy and really really hot but the price is expensive, the trips were not paid off ! Malls are better I tell you.

I'm not so into raya this year just wrap this with i have so much things happening on my plate. And I don't see necessity of having more than 1 baju raya. Not trying to say I'm cool tho but it just feel that way this year. Maybe coz I'm getting older and I got commitments to pay better than shopping and spending here and there.

Or mayyyyybeeeeee I'm more matured now who knows omg if its real that would be great.

I sensed that I only need so little these days. My feeling constantly changing every day. Its hard to remain with one concept daily. And I easily get distracted / losing interest like a snap. Uh-hoo.
I started to dislike extravagant dresses, sequins, heels and heavy make ups. I'm more into all simple and comfy and reliable and most important; prcatical. In other words, clothes  that can go straight into washing machine is great!

Slowly but surely, I'm losing attraction towards shiny things. And I don't wanna get unnecessary attention. I don't like to be too embossed in crowd. I love simplicity, moderate, humble & comfortableness.
I valued time even better thinking we have too little time on Earth. I don't like to thing too much on what to wear for tomorrow's workday. I don't really mind wearing the same blouse over again in a week as long I feel comfortable in them.

Guess I'm changing for the better.

And I started to prioritise things better like I didn't excited for Raya because Ramadhan is much much much more important and valuable compared to Raya. And Solat comes first before Puasa so make sure the prayers are taken care off well. Things like that.

I know I am a bad person. I never feel I kind enough for anyone. At times, I feel its impossible to forgive myself if I ever asked myself for that chance again.

But I know whats right and I know I gotta chase them no matter what.

Pre-raya

I don't know where to start but if you read my previous posts , maybe you'll get a bit of idea where this leading to. As Raya is coming, so the wars too.

Everyone in the house gets like 'panic attacks'. Everything needs to be done in a day when we are all fasting. I mean, hold on mom. You may be good tho but most of us especially me, I'm not. I cannot cope with too fast track of house chores; cleaning, vacuuming, dishing, cooking, cookies-ing, washing, curtain-ing ALL IN ONE DAY straight!

It is insaneeee. What kind of insanity is thiz??
I totally freak out and flatttt. I mean, let's do things one at a time. We still have time. Don't be too rush. No point. Let's focus on the important first like prayers, fasting, Lailatulqadr and add on SOME daily  chores some where in between. But not all to be done by today. I know my mon is ALWAYS ethusiastic about households and chores especially during Raya but we have no one else to clean up the house. It always us to do it, every year every raya. And this year is a bit havoc because I already started working so I am totally exhausted. Weekend is my only savior but in this house there is never a Saturday nor Sunday.

Its so so so TIIRING I wanna cry so badly.
Give me a break. My bones are breaking already 😷😖😔😫😭🙏