Teared x Ruptured

I haven't been feeling really well these days. And if anyone asks me what is so different after hit the hypo, it defo gonna be ENERGY DEPLETION. I know myself too well that I can handle few days good even without sleeps but nowadays, no wayy man. Every time before the day not even end I wil be total flat-cannot walk or talk anymore. That's how bad I am these days. I may be young at heart, I always knew it because I wanted to do so much. I am active and love love LOVE outdoor jobs. But ever since hypo says Hye, I have to tolerate my body limit always. Can you imagine? Once, I was an active lady and I HATE doing NOTHING. I lovvvvvvvvvvvve travelling, busy life, hectic days and nights ahead, 10 metings a day, see the clients, make proposals, sheetssss of Excel to do, greet the public, go here and there. It was my life that I prayed for. But after hypo, its BIG THING CHANGED mannnn. Its so serious deal for me. Of course, I'm affected in some ways but I managed altered my life for good.

Strange, people did not see me as a sick person because they are right-I did not seem like one. I am not skinny thin or malnourished or too pale. But they never think that few of them hurts me SO MUCH. My body is hurt. I never compensate or pampere my body and restrict that "No body, you cannot do this."   Or going, "this will tire you so don't." But I really really really can't help this anymore because my body really forcing itself to be okay. I know my limits but people don't. None of them know. When I brave few words to explain "I might seem okay but actually I am so exhausted right now." They wil go "Oh c'mon! Jangan diikutkan sangat badan tu. Nanti pemalas. Nanti melarat. Blablabla..." These people know nothing. My heart shattered to pieces. If I was about to manja-ing my body, I never woke up from bed lah. I was curling, shaking, I cannot see straight yet they kept firing me lectures. These people: they do exist for "some" reason, do they?

The truh is, hypo people energy depletes really really fast. They are passionate to do or join many things but the body got limits. They did not want it but they have to RESPECT their body too. Rather than suddenly faint on streets which is much more nuisance it is better for them to say, "i need to rest". Even saying that "i need to rest" is burdensome for us because people got stigma, bad perception on how "we don't wanna get tired" well, thats not the real truth I tell you. Maybe , maybe some would use that as excuse but I speak for most, generally that is happening with our body. Every patient is different and their symptoms are different too.

Do research. Study. Read. And learn us, the hypothyroid people. It is NOT EASY. We cope with this so why don't you too? Let's change our lifestyle for good.