You know what? It is hard to be a good person. And its also hard to be a bad person.
Tonight, I did something which I didn't know whether it was good or 'too bad' or just 'bad in a good way' or "good in a bad way."
The story goes when i decline some one's wish but i did it with my uttermost respect to him. Not even the sligthiest disrespect nor hogh voice from me. And that person said , okay. Nvm.
And we do believed that we are in a very good terms. But those people around me when they listened to my story without being there by themselves to see the situation with their own eyes, started the debate and own court to judge where am i wrong this time?
Okay. I may not see between the lines of what that person really means but I don't feel comfortable people talking about it like i just did a homicide. They make me feel extremely bad. I was so confused on what wrong i did? I also slightly feel that i may be wrong by declining but it was all good that time! I swear!
And now i am all left feeling so confused and guilty about things that i'm not sure. Later, the person comes out and he seems as good as always. Again, i am so confused with this peoples' court!
One of the thing i hate is that people coyying with my feelings. And i gradually taking their bait. And i started to run for that person whom i believed i've wronged. And when i did, that people will get shock and consider me as "those that hard to move on."
Oh man..!
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